That is where I have been for the past week.
Excuse me for what will follow as a complete whine fest but I think I deserve it.
I have been so sick for the past week or so and it seems to only get worse every day. I knew this would happen. Why did I want another baby? I know that is horrible to say and that children are blessing's from God, but I don't know why being pregnant has to be so hard on me. I throw up every day, multiple times a day, and when I'm not throwing up I'm trying hard NOT to throw up. It is so hard to eat and near impossible to hold anything down. And when I do find something that I can hold down, I get horrible indigestion that makes me want to puke. Oh, and the metallic taste. Gross! I can't get rid of it and it's really annoying the heck out of me.
And I'm only 7 weeks along. God, please help me.
I was sick like this with Charlotte and I guess I held on to some sliver of hope that I wouldn't be as sick next time but I guess that just didn't work out. I was sick for 21 long and painful weeks with Charlotte and even after that I threw up occasionally and struggled with terrible indigestion. I really am a miserable pregnant woman. I am so jealous of women who have little or no nausea while pregnant. Or women who are nauseous but don't throw up or their sickness ends after the first trimester. Please God, let this end soon.... What I have is a very mild case of hyperemesis. I haven't lost any weight (yet), but I can't imagine that won't happen soon. My throat hurts from throwing up and it's near impossible to eat or drink anything without feeling horrible for hours afterwards. *sigh*
Today I hardly got out of bed. I just couldn't do it. Every time I walked I got nauseated and gagged and had to lay back down. I feel so guilty about this because I feel like I'm not having fun with Charlotte anymore and she is missing out. Thomas has been so fantastic through all of this, he has totally taken on the roles of baby caretaker and food maker.
And just the thought of going back to work this week makes me ill. I don't know how I'm going to do it especially since I can't even get out of bed!
Thank God for a wonderful church family who has sent over meals and food for us (mainly for my poor husband and child! ha) and are praying for me. Thank you ladies so much, it really does mean a lot.
Again, I'm sorry if I sound like a complete whiner, I really don't mean to be. I just feel very alone and miserable ALL the time. I would appreciate your prayers but please hold off on the advice. I have tried it all (I promise!) and nothing has worked, even the 8mg of Zofran I take every 8 hours or so. Only thing I haven't tried is the SeaBands so I might get some of those tomorrow but I can't imagine they'd do anything either!!! :(
Thanks for reading and for your prayers.